My prayer for me….
“Ashlee, please tell me the prayer that you prayed. I’m listening!” I have received this comment so many time before! But seriously, the prayer that I prayed was as follows:
God, heal me.
God, restore me.
God, help me to see my worth and my value.
God, help me to be 100% authentic.
God, guide my steps so I can transform into the woman that I have the capability of being.
God, help me to find myself in you, again, so I can be a woman that is desired by a man who finds himself in You.
God, help me correct the flaws are in me that don’t serve me well.”
My prayer was for me first because I understood that, if I became better, I would attract better. I accepted that if I was the best version of me and truly took time to get me together, a real man was going to come looking for me, baby! I’m a firm believer that what you are is what you attract! So, if I wanted to attract a husband, I needed to be a wife. Now, I’ve always had a wife mindset, but my experiences in the past had created some trauma that I needed to heal from because I did not want to be jaded and resentful. I didn’t want to carry that baggage into the new life that I was creating. I began to do the work. Faith without work is dead! We have to do the work!
My prayer for him….
So, once I felt like I was closer to a better me, than my prayer shifted into…
God, send me the husband that I need, not the husband that I want.
God, let him follow You and live according to your word.
God, make him be what I need long-term, not just what I need for today.
God, let him come find me because he sees my worth and knows that his life is better with me in it.
God, when you send my husband to me, make it plain and make it clear so there is no confusion….Amen!
During this prayer I also prayed for God to increase my discernment because, in all honesty, I was making some not-so-good decisions at a point in my life. The moment that I became satisfied and comfortable with waiting on God to send me what I needed, I found a new level of peace. I was able to refocus on God, His purpose for me and allow His will to be done.
God knows your heart. He knows your mind. He knows what you need, remember, He created you. You don’t have to ask for anything specific because, a lot of times, what we ask for is what we want, and not what we need. The moment that I took a deep breath and I gave my husband search over to God and let Him direct my love life I knew it was already handled. I went on living the life that I enjoyed. Although I trusted God fully to make the perfect match, I did asked Him to send me a tracking number when my husband is en route to my area! That’s when this man of mine showed up! So that’s the prayer, sis. Pray for yourself first, and then, let God do the rest!